pain in my ass!!!

yeah we had a fight again!!! this time sampai kakak and mummy (FMIL) pun tau!!! u see, we supposed to go and tempah my wedding baju for his side that last saturday's weekend as he promised to come along and meet kak sheena (his sister) and mummy(my FMIL) at kak liza's boutique. I purposely drag him along coz i wanted him to participate and get involved in this whole thing. After all this is our wedding right????

so that saturday, around 11 am i called him and asked "so camne?"

"awak saya kat gym ni satgi kakak amik awak pegi kedai kak liza saya malas nak gi, nnt mami lambat sangat kat sana"

tak ke rasa nak meletop dgr????

last night he said, he's goin to come together, all of sudden he changed his mind without telling me first and asked kakak to fetched me instead?

i was so pissed off and i yelled at him
"this is our wedding for god's sake can you be participate and be cooperative???"

i am so despair..

and he said "awak jap gi saya cal balik saya nak mandi jap"

i just hung up the phone without further explaination!!!

and i was crying my lungs out!! nasib takde org kat umah abis i threw all the hangers sampai ade yang patah!!!

i was totally devastated, sometimes i don't understand why a simple things like this he just couldn't understand..it's OUR WEDDING and i want to discuss every bits of it, indirectly means i want u to be there with me in every decision making bout the whole wedding thingey..get it????huh susah sangat ke??


Akibat terlalu marah, i call her sister and said "kakak am sorry i thing i can't come and join u, coz am so sad and pissed off"


and kakak was like "sabarlaa, this past few weeks asyik gadoh je ke? or maybe something to passing by..or more like dugaan"

i said "malasla kak i don't want to get married kot" gila tak??

kakak was being so supportive and nice by telling me to be patient..she said "nevermind u can come later k"

so i hung up..and he called me back sayin' "awak jom pegi tempah baju" boleh???

ko tak benggang ke?


"i said no!!"

he asked "why not?"

i said "malas, dah takde mood" and i hung up


and later i checked my phone i've got 2 missed calls from FMIL... :( abisla mesti kakak bagitau mami.. :( and i didn't returned the call..sebab malu :( sorry mami i didn't mean to hurt you!!

pastu i ended up tido sampai kul 4..and i received an sms from him saying..

"dlm sebulan boleh kire dgn jari brape kali kite ok..kenapa nak dekat kawin makin teruk jadinye?...

i didn't reply as well..but i felt i little bit relieved when he kind a notice something is wrong with us..hehehhehee


U know..sometimes he can be irritatingly selfish or such a pain in my ass, and surprisingly adorable the next second.. i just don't know what to expect from him anymore..tapi hatiku yang sakit!!!!! arghhhhhhhh

later that nite i smsed him saying "why we always hurt the one we love the most?"

heheehhehehee....

whatever it is..i still love u to bits..huh!!!