Wednesday, February 27, 2008

am a bitch beach!!!

  • i wanna do sun bathing
  • snorkeling
  • wearing bikini
aargghhhhhhhhhhh.....i hope i can hop to any island this year!!!

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

all good things must come to an end..

  • this week going to be my last week in JDA aka JOHAN DESIGN ASSOCIATES,
    how do i feel??? i dont know, really - sad, content, jovial, worried and sometimes nervous..
    i have a mixed feeling bout this..coz this is my first ever job straight after my graduation minus 2 months as a jobless..but hey this is the Agency who willing to take me and guide me for this past 6 years and half..i really learned a lot..from nothing to everything..eventho' there's a lot
    i need to learn but still it was a precious moments in my life!!! not a word to describe it..
    and i know am gonna miss certain people and a few things in JDA...kerana JDA telah membuatkan saya spoilt!!!

    these are the things i'll be missing once i left..

    wearing jeans, t-shirt buruk, snickers aka all the casual attires!!
    don't bother about being shabby!!

    bangun lambat dan masuk opis lambat..waaaaaaa!!!

    sukehati nak emergency leave..

    masuk lambat tapi kalau takde keje boleh je balik sharp 5.30..gile best ok

    saya akan merindui after-work session..window shopping
    to the nearest mall(KLCC, Pavillion, Sg Wang, Lot Ten)

    all the foods nearby...makcik TGKT 5-kuew tiao goreng basah,
    mee bandung, sup sayur dan ikan goreng

    Vietnamese Cuisine at The Weld, Nasi Ayam Hainan, Subway and etc

    BANKS!!! lepas ni kene tunggu hujung minggulaa nak bayar all the bills

    and i will be missing car pooling with jaja's after work.:(

    but come to think bout it.....

    This is LIFE!!!

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Something Oprah had to say about Men

this one gud piece i got it from someone's blog and i think i like to share it with all the women out there...

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve,
then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is YOU.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything.
He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behavior.Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.Never borrow someone else's man.

If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.You

should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them,a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

pain in my ass!!!

yeah we had a fight again!!! this time sampai kakak and mummy (FMIL) pun tau!!! u see, we supposed to go and tempah my wedding baju for his side that last saturday's weekend as he promised to come along and meet kak sheena (his sister) and mummy(my FMIL) at kak liza's boutique. I purposely drag him along coz i wanted him to participate and get involved in this whole thing. After all this is our wedding right????

so that saturday, around 11 am i called him and asked "so camne?"

"awak saya kat gym ni satgi kakak amik awak pegi kedai kak liza saya malas nak gi, nnt mami lambat sangat kat sana"

tak ke rasa nak meletop dgr????

last night he said, he's goin to come together, all of sudden he changed his mind without telling me first and asked kakak to fetched me instead?

i was so pissed off and i yelled at him
"this is our wedding for god's sake can you be participate and be cooperative???"

i am so despair..

and he said "awak jap gi saya cal balik saya nak mandi jap"

i just hung up the phone without further explaination!!!

and i was crying my lungs out!! nasib takde org kat umah abis i threw all the hangers sampai ade yang patah!!!

i was totally devastated, sometimes i don't understand why a simple things like this he just couldn't's OUR WEDDING and i want to discuss every bits of it, indirectly means i want u to be there with me in every decision making bout the whole wedding thingey..get it????huh susah sangat ke??

Akibat terlalu marah, i call her sister and said "kakak am sorry i thing i can't come and join u, coz am so sad and pissed off"

and kakak was like "sabarlaa, this past few weeks asyik gadoh je ke? or maybe something to passing by..or more like dugaan"

i said "malasla kak i don't want to get married kot" gila tak??

kakak was being so supportive and nice by telling me to be patient..she said "nevermind u can come later k"

so i hung up..and he called me back sayin' "awak jom pegi tempah baju" boleh???

ko tak benggang ke?

"i said no!!"

he asked "why not?"

i said "malas, dah takde mood" and i hung up

and later i checked my phone i've got 2 missed calls from FMIL... :( abisla mesti kakak bagitau mami.. :( and i didn't returned the call..sebab malu :( sorry mami i didn't mean to hurt you!!

pastu i ended up tido sampai kul 4..and i received an sms from him saying..

"dlm sebulan boleh kire dgn jari brape kali kite ok..kenapa nak dekat kawin makin teruk jadinye?...

i didn't reply as well..but i felt i little bit relieved when he kind a notice something is wrong with us..hehehhehee

U know..sometimes he can be irritatingly selfish or such a pain in my ass, and surprisingly adorable the next second.. i just don't know what to expect from him anymore..tapi hatiku yang sakit!!!!! arghhhhhhhh

later that nite i smsed him saying "why we always hurt the one we love the most?"


whatever it is..i still love u to bits..huh!!!

Thursday, February 14, 2008


as i read every words he text me,
i felt so touched and tears formed in the corner of my eyes.
Little that i know, he'd still have the sweetest side of him.
Thank you so much for your effort.
it may be nothing for others but for me its priceless and so thoughtful
u really makes my heart goes fonder :-)

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

don't look back in anger...

a past few days has been the most phatetic days for me - disappointment leads me to anger, sad and frustration. Sometimes i know i do act like a drama queen or a bitchy attention seeker but i thing i deserve to be treated like a real queen once in a while.

huh!!!! konon2 nak marah sampai 1 minggu ..taknak cakap phone no ym whatsoever!!!!


well, am just a woman right??? lembut hati tak smapai hati!!! ciss!!!

i know am not ok..

Sunday, February 10, 2008

yesterday, today & tommorow

my emotion are please don't u ever try to push the button..i assure you'd never want to see me looking like a monster and chop your head off!!! so be careful with your words..don't tell me i didn't warned you!!!

but..i still wanna share something with you guys for what had happened yesterday..hehehehhee as i was trying a jacket from forever 21, suddenly a guy just came to me and said "you look good on that, really " hehehhehee i was smiling endlessly back and acknowladge him with "thank you" dan sengih sampai telinga..wakakakkakkaa perasan!!!!

esok i'll call that Tuan Haji Nasir to ask about my OFFER LETTER..tension nih!!!!